Well... Hello. This is a first in a long time. And it has a deadline according to the word of Jenny :P. You know I love ya. Well, had another great convo with a great girl. And I miss my Futurama buddy. I love to have deepness like that but I really don't have a lot of inbetween and I think that's what's missing from me and Jenny's convos face to face, we're either really silly or we're watching moving pictures. I guess I've always been uncomfortable with carrying on real conversations because I stumble on what I say, fumbling and sometimes speaking before I've got everything thought out.
by the way if you don't know Jenny I feel sorry for you. She is the nicest person you could ever meet, this isn't just me saying this I truly haven't met one person who doesn't think she is really nice and very cool. I treasure our friendship and I thank Janelle for giving me the chance to get to know this person. She's shown me how the human spirit, even when in the worst of conditions can rise like a phoenix from it's former ashes. She is and always be a good friend.
Christmas is a strange thing this year. I'm not sure why but it get's stranger and stranger every year it just seems very diff. Like it's not going to happen maybe it's just the way my mind is working right now, but it just seems like I'm going through the motions. Anyway I better cut this short cuz it's getting late and long.
So happy Christmas and a merry new year and all that junk.

Josh

in the last 24 hours I:

Have slept a mere 4.5 hours
worked a 2-11 shift
and now I'm friggin on the comp writing this blog at 3:13 AM instead of enjoying a good night's rest. The funny thing is I really didn't notice being tired all that much today until I stopped moving i.e. bathroom(it was kinda weird falling asleep on the toilet though I did think about it during work.), watching Naruto w/ Marshall(it's exciting but my body seems to think the back of my eyelids are is more exciting.), watching Family Guy(for the same reason), and sitting here typing this. I'm one crazy mofo. At least I'd like to think so. By the way, did I mention I was tired? I did enjoy last night though listening to nonsensical drunks and putting the PROBULATOR 3000 on Jen's desktop(I had enough OC for one very long night, the screensaver was bad enough). And SLC Punk was very good by the way a real thinker though many peeps prolly deny it. Well... I better hit the hay, cuz I am exhausted(my pupils are crossing in my already crossed iris. Whoever reads this I wish them a good night, and to never stay up till 6:30, never a good idea, never. Though I prolly will do it again someday soon. So much for learning from mistakes. Night.

If someone said I was just some ordinary average kid with not a care in the world... they were wrong